Everlasting Gobstopper

My heart had been stone cold
Having been ill treated too oft
And without knowing
I had fallen into a slumber

Now I have been awakened
By your gaze and touch
My heart beating again
Yet as never before

I see all of you
As you were, are
As you are still to be
My heart beats with certainty
As I will always desire you

I fear this is a dream
That I will awake to find
A cold and gray world
Without my Everlasting Gobstopper

I long for the day
When you will say
That this is not a dream
That this is our life

Boulders

Can’t see the top
Wall of earth looming overhead
Against clear blue skies
The color of Caribbean waters

Cold, jagged edges stab at the sky
As I reach up to the next hold
I look up, scanning the jagged edges
Hoping to find some rest
Seeing only more hard cold surface

I pray sobbingly for an end
I search desperately for answers
But all I see is granite and stone

Each time I think
I glimpse the summit
I realize instead that
It's yet another chasm
Which I must conquer

The House That Touches the Sky

As you walk in, I see
The ceiling rise up
Above our heads

I look up to find
The roof, arching its back
Toward the heavens

Can you see this?
Or is it just my eyes,
Playing tricks on me?

I tilt my head back again
Expecting to find
Wooden beams stretching
Their mahogany arms
Up and away

But instead, I see that
Spotless blue that
The sky becomes on that
Perfect Day

White Waters

Rapids carrying me downstream
Can’t catch my breath
The white foams push
Swirling loudly around me

Through the fog in my eyes
I search desperately for a glimpse
Of rocks on the riverbanks
But they elude my sight

Gasping again, looking for sunlight
Cold fingers tug at my legs
Tossed around like an empty shell
My lungs drown in icicles

Then just as I surrender
To the icy slumber that is certain
Ready for sudden peace
The sun warms me
I am afloat, embraced by silence

Les Yeux Que J'aime

As I stand here before you
I find myself lost
For what feels like eternity
Yet is merely an instance

As I sit here before you
I look to lose myself
Hoping to find dark pools
That I can lose myself in

As I lay here before you
I know I am found again
Knowing that I will forever be
Yours

Moved To Write

Having one of those moments in life when I have to stop for a moment and take a breath.

Too much has happened in just the past 4 months. More changes than I can count on my hands have rendered me speechless.

So I'm taking this time to look inward and reflect. Questions I don't have the answers to haunt me -- The what ifs, the why nots, and the whens.

Should I laugh, or should I cry?

Top 10 [fill in the blank]s of the Year 2010

As we begin our annual ritual of holiday parties (went to my first one of the season tonight, and it's not even Thanksgiving yet!), and the madness begins with the pre-pre-pre-pre-Black Friday sales, I thought I'd start a new annual tradition. While the new year is about starting things anew, shedding our old skin, etc., the holiday season is a good time to reflect on the year that is nearly passed by, and to even revisit the emotional highs and lows of the year. Haven't figured out what to call this list yet -- Top 10 Milestones? Top 10 Watershed moments? I'm taking suggestions.

So until I get a really good submission from one of my 3 readers, here is my Top 10 [fill in the blank]s of the Year for 2010:

10. The [Republican] Boys Are Back in Town: Need I say more, other than groan?

9. The Big Heist: The MTA in its inimitable fashion approved yet another fare hike, this time choosing to penalize their most loyal riders by jacking up the Unlimited cards.

8. Big Forecast, NOT: Apparently, the Great Recession is over. So why is unemployment up?

7. Team CoCo Ya!: Conan O'Brien lived through the world's ugliest divorce from the Peacock network. Thankfully, he was able to throw the proverbial pie in their face by beating Jay on the debut of his new show on TBS.

6. Brett Favre Throws a Dud: I thought I'd seen the worst in celeb-athelete misbehaving when Tiger Woods couldn't hide anymore from all his indiscretions. Turns out the best football player of the last decade may be even more pathetic by stalking a young intern.

5. iPad Gets Mixed Reviews/iPhone Get Lifted: Not long after Apple launched the iPad to reviews that ran the entire spectrum from "too soon" to "just in time", Gizmodo [allegedly] committed theft by publishing the details from the new generation of the prototype that hadn't been released yet that they "recovered" from a bar.

4. Glenn Beck Needs to Just Go Away!!!: Need I say more?

3. Chilean Miners: With all the mining tragedies around, I can't believe they all made it. But did we actually expect that someone shut up underground for almost 3 months could actually run the NYC Marathon?

2. The Big Spill in the Big Easy: If ever there were a clear example of how oil is bad for the environment in the short term in addition to slowly killing Earth...

1. The Clueless: Can we PLEASE make it mandatory for EVERY SINGLE MEMBER of the Tea Party to take an American History 101 class??? N-O-W???

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